I don't really know why, but I'm incredibly happy.

I've been loud and bouncy all day!!!  some smart mouth in my class asked me if I drink blood from my own cuts. for whatever reason I grinned and said " YEAH!!! it's sooooooooo good!!! i TOTALLY drink my OWN BLOOD!!!" he looked scared and walked off. i've been giggling nonstop too.

im going to do my work in the library today at lunch, kind of avoiding my boyfriend. he keeps putting me through guilt trips about us breaking up because he's turning 18. he should be mature enough to handle this, and if he's not, I'm glad we won't be together, because I need someone more mature than that!

oh has anyone seen the Toyger? it's an adorable adorable house cat that looks like a tiger!!! they're SO cute!!! <3 i'm completely in love with them. then again, i always fall for a cute face, especially kittens! ^-^ the bengal kittens are also incredibly adorable... i think im in love with all those little house cats that are reminiscent of wild animals ah, but who can blame me? just look at those cute faces!

 OH!!! on 13moons.com there's these miniature blades called "Falcon Twin Blade", ones about five inches the others 3.5. they're beautiful!!! i'm obsessed with them.... theres also a "Darkness Power Bowie" which is so fragile looking, but at the same time lethal.  I think I have an obsession with Sharp objects! 8(

i think i'll save up and buy those falcon blades. I like small knives better than big ones anyways.... and no i won't cut myself with them. i'm forcing myself to get over it. i'm not cutting, boozing, letting depression take its hold again!! every time i do some jackass THING comes after me! it's like they feast off my depression and self inflicted pain. AGH! WHY THE HELL DIDN'T I REALIZE THAT?!?! DAMNIT DAMNIT DAMNIT!!!

-RUNS TO LOOK UP THINGS THAT FEAST OFF OF NEGATIVITY-