Hi again. haven't been on in soo long.

well I got my first journal. It's entirely to write about my journey in Wicca, and it is sooo pretty. Kione and I saw it at barnes&noble for five bucks and I saw it and thought of how it would be great to hold my spells. that was yesterday. today I've filled three pages in Runes, which I quickly taught myself to avoid curious eyes.

and! I found out I am entirely a water person. my anger is a hurricane not a wildfire :) hm, what else.

 

family still sucks, had an interesting date this afternoon, and it went...well. ^-^;;; and uhmmm....

yeah I guess that's all im willing to share.

 

Goddess Bless!

 

 

-Luna Oceanid Sea Thorn

Hey everyone!

 

Well, I know I have'nt been online for a while, and for that I am terribly sorry. new semester, new circumstances and all.

 

well my Abuelita (grandma) is sick in the hospital. and my mum left to take care of her, so I'm babysitting for the weekend, as my dad is in and out of the house, what with all his lovely meetings and such. So I'm praying for a speedy recovery for my Abuelita, but if that's not in her plans, then I wish her as little pain as possible. I'm not going to be greedy and jealous if her need is to not be here. I want what's best for her.

 

On a lighter note, My ex-boyfriend Paul asked me out on a date this weekend. and I think I said yes. we both have matured and we really like each other, but I want to take it much slower than last year. I tend to be a little fast with my relationships, and I'd rather not do that this time.

My other ex Rick is going to be more mature now, and I hope he sticks to it. I told him he needs to get help or have something stable in his life, and I hope he listens to me.

 

 

I'm trying to make a garden as well. any suggestions for what to plant? I want corn, carrots, melons, and onions, because that's what I've always had, but I want more things. any ideas?

 

also, I'm learning to forgive people for past wrongs, because if something were to happen to me or them, I don't want to have anyone go into death with a stupid hatred towards someone over something so.....silly.

 

AND my Sister Eclipse and my Brother Riley ( not really my brother but those are my feelings towards him....as a sibling) are starting to talk and stuff. it's way cool. they've really hit it off.

 

 

my life's been looking up, although I'm having more issues than normal. oh well!

 

How is everyone?

Learn 50 things about your friends, and let them learn 50 things about you!

1. Do you like blue cheese? no

2. Have you ever smoked heroin? definately no!!!

3. Do you own a gun? no, im pretty good at self defense. woot cheese graters and baseball bats!

4. What flavor do you add to your drink at sonic? ..what's sonic?

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? YES

6. What do you think of hot dogs? ew....

7. Favorite Christmas song? jingle bell rock

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? orange juice, coffee, or a chocolate protein shake.

9. Can you do push ups? haha, yeah. i have to, thanks to sea cadets.

10. What do you order at starbucks? last thing i got there was a gingerbread latte.

11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? the dogtags my ex gave me today, my dedication necklace, my sharktooth, my garnet/tigereye/pearl necklace, and my gold/pearl ring. :D

12. Favorite hobby?drawing, painting, writing(poems) talking.

13.how do you like your eggs? i have to make them myself. i scramble them with mushroom and corn and make it into an omellette type shape with cheese inside. i have it with a tortilla and oj.

14. Do you have A.D.D.? nope

15. What's one trait that you hate about yourself? how easily i give in to things...

16. Middle name? Lynn

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment..
#1 i hope the teacher doesnt notice im on the internet....

#2 i need money...

#3 uh....what's my locker combo again?!?!

18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday. -blinks- i bought something yesterday?

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink.? tea, oj, water.

20. Current worry right now.? whether im going to get caught, whether Ricks going to do something stupid now that we've broken up.

21. Current hate right now? classmates, school, cramps...

22. Favorite place to be? with my friends and sisters.

23. What did you do to bring in the New Year? slept and yelled at shasta for being too noisy.... xD

24. Where would you like to go? ireland, japan, italy, hawaii.

25. Name three people who will complete this? no idea.

26. Do you own slippers? noooooo....

27. What shirt are you wearing? a pale gold shirt with gold beaded flowers over black print flowers.

28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? O.O YES.

29. Can you whistle? yeah.

30. Favorite color?(s) red!

31. Would you be a pirate? sure, as long as i was higher in rank. more loot that way.

32. What songs do you sing in the shower? i sing?

33. Favorite girl's name? Janey.

34. Favorite boy's name? Edward. xD

35. What's in your pocket right now? cell phone and my locker combo! I FOUND IT!! 8D

36. Last thing that made you laugh? in p.e. when we were playing soccer two guys just jumped on each other to get the ball and i kicked it out from them.

37. Best bed sheets as a child? haha, i dun use bed sheets. i used to have these soft gold ones.

38. Worst injury you've ever had? ovarian cyst explosion, 7th grade i think. that was PAINFUL.

39. Do you love where you live? i love the area, not the house.

40. How many TVs do you have in your house? 2-3? idk, i don't watch t.v.

41. Who is your loudest friend? tie between Eclipse and April....

42. How many dogs do you have?1! she's so cute.

43. Does someone have a crush on you?  how am i supposed to know that?

45. What is your favorite book? too many....

46. What is your favorite candy? good chocolate.... especially POCKY!!!  

47. Favorite Sports Team? i like sports teams?

48.What song do you want played at your Funeral? 8D animals-nickelback          all the things she said- t.A.t.U               funny farm-Dr.Demento             House of wolves- My Chemical Romance

49. What were you doing 12 AM last night? sleeeeeeeeeeeping....

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning? F---IN A! @#%&^$%@#%$#^% IT'S F-----ING COLD!!!  ........ I'm very angry in the morning....

I don't really know why, but I'm incredibly happy.

I've been loud and bouncy all day!!!  some smart mouth in my class asked me if I drink blood from my own cuts. for whatever reason I grinned and said " YEAH!!! it's sooooooooo good!!! i TOTALLY drink my OWN BLOOD!!!" he looked scared and walked off. i've been giggling nonstop too.

im going to do my work in the library today at lunch, kind of avoiding my boyfriend. he keeps putting me through guilt trips about us breaking up because he's turning 18. he should be mature enough to handle this, and if he's not, I'm glad we won't be together, because I need someone more mature than that!

oh has anyone seen the Toyger? it's an adorable adorable house cat that looks like a tiger!!! they're SO cute!!! <3 i'm completely in love with them. then again, i always fall for a cute face, especially kittens! ^-^ the bengal kittens are also incredibly adorable... i think im in love with all those little house cats that are reminiscent of wild animals ah, but who can blame me? just look at those cute faces!

 

 OH!!! on 13moons.com there's these miniature blades called "Falcon Twin Blade", ones about five inches the others 3.5. they're beautiful!!! i'm obsessed with them.... theres also a "Darkness Power Bowie" which is so fragile looking, but at the same time lethal.  I think I have an obsession with Sharp objects! 8(

i think i'll save up and buy those falcon blades. I like small knives better than big ones anyways.... and no i won't cut myself with them. i'm forcing myself to get over it. i'm not cutting, boozing, letting depression take its hold again!! every time i do some jackass THING comes after me! it's like they feast off my depression and self inflicted pain. AGH! WHY THE HELL DIDN'T I REALIZE THAT?!?! DAMNIT DAMNIT DAMNIT!!!

-RUNS TO LOOK UP THINGS THAT FEAST OFF OF NEGATIVITY-

Well i feel like shit. and i've been under some serious stress and lack of sleep.

 I'm pretty dang sick right now, but i'm at school. my arm is very majorly messed up. over ten visible cuts. >.<  i may be joining two tracks and a swim team. -choke- in addition to sea cadets and fencing. i feel like puking. my two new headphones are messed up already. i have to go to the counselor today because i have a d+ in english.

           anyone have information on ghosts or afterlife spirits? or just malicious supernatural beings? becuase one is influencing Eclipse's mother and attacked me (i'd rather not go into details, let it suffice to say i was in fetal position and nearly crying) when i was at her house. rather frightening experience.

           i've also found this power to "Thread" with others. everyone has a spool of thread in a room in their heart, and if you find it you can use it to influence them. awesome, but frightening. and exhausting.

  positive note: Ricks getting better control of Loki!!! (Loki=his other personality) every time he wears or has the dragon ring near him when he's angry, Loki doesn't-CANT- take over!!! i'm insanely overjoyed by that. before when he was angry he'd black out and Loki would take over and Rick wouldn't remember it. but now he does, as long as the ring is near him. (i asked the ring to protect him and help him)

 

LOVES!